i will never forget you ,tho i never met you,you took a piece of my heart with you / Dave Decarlo (uncle) i am so mad at myself for never having made the move to talk or write in a more personal way to you,but things were not going so good for me in many ways and i thought as most people do and put it off.saying to myself she will be more mature and then we can have a better relastionship(do not put it off)i am so sad that the only person left in my bro's life is now gone.She was so beautiful,if i only ,,,,sorry i send all my love to you Julie,Phil and your Mom and Dad,,i am sure they must really be hurting.thank god you sent me the photo's i have of Steph.all my love.............dave
Who Am I Now? - Victoria Tushingham - Los Angeles TCF / Juli Gestier (Mother) In the stillness of the morning, the cool gray light of dawn. I open my eyes, then remember: My only child is gone. It's different now, this older grief; the pain is not the same. Most people have forgotten, I rarely hear her name. But as I lie here, waiting for the another day to begin' I hear the emptiness echo, and I wonder who I am. Am I still a mother with no child to hold? How can my heart ever feel love when I still feel so cold? Am I going somewhere, with no dreams to lead? Do I have a purpose, can I fill a need? I'll never be a grandma, no grandchild of my own. Who will be beside me when I grow weary and, oh, so old? I'll never see the pleasure of life unfolding for my daughter. Who am I to go on for, what is life now for? Is there some direction, might there still be more? Will I find an answer, a place to call my won? Where will love once more blossom, from seeds that I have sown? Life is so confusing, I don't know where to go. All I ever planned for, just isn't going to be so. I struggle with a bearing, a need to find my way. What I now pray for is to have goals again one day. But the suffering is not so deep as before. And the tears have almost dried, There is strength within me. You see, our love didn't die. The sky's now fully opened, another day has begun, and I will find the courage to rise and meet the sun. I do not know the answers, the questions will remain, but with her love to guide me, I WILL learn to live again.
R.I.P/ May Nevz (passer by ) may her memory live on in ur dreams
ill never forget you / Nessrin Milkai (wattleview bestie =] )
'thanks for all youve done ive missed you for so long i cant belive your gone you still live in me. in loving memory of the one that was soo true you were as kind as you could be and even tho your gone you still mean the world to me'
stephanie i wishh i stillhad contact with you after you moved. i feel so selfish and guilty that i didnt even make an effort. but ill always love you and always be thinking of you. you brightend my years of primary school and i loveyou for it. i loveyou for being my friend wen there was no one else. and the memories i will always cherish. the sleepovers and the fun will always be there. i loveyou forever bub.
R.I.P xxx
nessrin,
MISS YA GIRL! R.I.P STEPH / Jade Davey (Old Primary School Best Friend )
Stephanie Gestier, i will always love you girl, i am gonna miss your smile and your laugh and just your spirit for the rest of my life, you will always be the bestest best friend i have ever had, i shared everything with you for over 12 years and now you are gone i am so lost and cant work out why, i remember the first day we met in Prep at Wattleview Primary School, it was a few days into school, you were shy, so was i, we got along, and two days later we were at each others house staying over for one whole week changing houses every few days, i am going to miss all of the special and amazing times we shared, i wish i had of gotten in touch with when i thought of you, a few weeks before i found out, i thought oh my god i should call her, i miss her so much, i had your number and everything, but, for some reason i thought you had moved on and didnt want to be friends any more, now i hate myself for not calling you, i could of helped you, you could have spoke to me about whatever problems you were having that you could obviously could only tell Jodie. When i first heard your name on the news my heart literally stopped, and i ran short of breathe, i thought they must of miss-pronounced the name or something, but then i read on the internet, an article which headed: "Stephanie Gestier and Jodie Gater found hung by Quarry" i began to cry, but i could not beleive it. I would never have thought that of you, why, what went wrong, when you were younger, you were so quite and so loving and giving and warm, You were so loved by everybody around you, the people who mattered to you, i was one of those but i thought u didnt anymore, so i left the phone alone and put away your number. I wish i had of called you so much, i would have found a way to stop you or atleast help u recover from the obviously devastating problem. I will always be completely devastated that you are gone, but i am so happy that i have so many memories of our crazy antics and adventures. I felt as if you were a younger sister i didnt feel that we came from different parents. We belonged together, in friendship, in life, in adventures and in this terrible tradgedy. I WILL LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER BABE!!!!!!! R.I.P Stephanie Gestier I LOVE YOU!!!
Miss you / Amy Dinsdale (friend)
i miss you so much steph. your beautiful smile and laugh are memories always remembered. you were always so happy when i saw you. it is amazing to see how many people around the world you have touched. it is weird not seeing you around the school, but i know that you are happier wherever you are. your memory will live on forever, never forgotten. everytime i see lollipops i think of you. miss u steph and rest in peace xx
So Sorry / Sharla Stuart (Passerby) What a beautiful girl! You can see her dynamic spirit just by looking at the pictures.
As a former "FREAK" myself (per the poem), I can remember the feelings of being an odd teenager just trying to be herself. Please know that whatever sadness or despair she had in life, she will NEVER have to feel again. Take comfort in knowing that those she left behind are now the only ones hurting; she is in a wonderful place without fear or pain & she now understands how very much you & her friends cherished her. I know that doesn't make YOUR PAIN any milder, but at least you can have the comfort of knowing that SHE is not hurting now. And as a mother, I'm sure that's the primary thing you have always wished for her.
You can still talk to her at any time & she will hear you (I know this from experience). Keep her vivacious spirit alive by LAUGHING when you speak of her, remembering the crazy & special character that she was. I'm sure that is what SHE WOULD WANT FROM YOU now.
I am so sorry for your loss & if I could take away your pain, I would. I will say many prayers for you & your family. Please take care of yourself (as you KNOW she would want).
Sincerely, Sharla
/ Gabbeq (Friend) Labelled “freaks by those who saw them, Labelled “friends” by those that knew them.
Superficial you were far from that, The guilt, the harsh words so many wish they could retract.
Misunderstood in life and death, Your bodies, your souls now lay’d to eternal rest.
The pain, the confused. The thoughts of others, those are the ones you neglected to use.
You left us for a reason no body will ever find. You spirits dearly missed by those you left behind.
You were drops of innocence, like the drops that now cloud our eyes. The tears in our hearts, those will be the tears that never dry.
The teenage vow you took together, The memories of you will stay with us forever. The pain you experienced, our worst nightmares could not conceive. You’re gone, now and forever, our minds refuse to believe.
Heaven, I suspect you questioned, I hope you have found the happiness you so destined.
So Sorry / Caitlyn Styles Family (stranger)
We are so sorry about your lose! Hope you are all OK & aren't blaming your self for her death.
To you... / Shari-Lei (Friend..) Hi Juli
I knew your daughter for a time that seems so brief in a world that she never got to truly experience. We knew each other online, and I'd only only ever known her to smile... She was so bright and fun and she always had such nice things to say about people...
I am sorry for the loss of such a bright star... and I have no doubt that she's looking down from up there thinking she missed out.. But just glad to be able to see us.
We, the people who knew her, should thank you. For the bright spark she brought to our lives on those cloudy days...
She was beautiful and will always be such a cherished memory.
xox Shari
Stephanie's Wish / Juli Gestier (Mother) Don't judge me for how I left this world; remember the love that I gave. A lot of grief will follow me, for the decision that I have made.
Changes appear in everyone's life, some good, and some bad. The one that I chose for myself made everyone very sad.
But in time, memories will heal the hurt of hearts and my presence will be felt by all with an inner peace. Remember me when the sun is bright and laughter fills the air and a moonlit night and whispers of wind will tell you that I am there.
Don't look down on my family or fill their hearts with blame. For my leaving them without good-byes, they will never be the same.
If I could go back in time, I say a last good-bye, I'd tell them to look to tomorrow and for me..... Do not cry......
I am truly sorry... / David Lohr for you loss. I hope she is at peace now.
Comfort to family / Sharleen Hess (passerby) Family, I wish I could take away our pain. The worse thing about death is what it leaves behind while we live on, but we must go on. Love the ones you have left. I feel your pain and I am where you are. It is hard everyday but I gain a little bit of strength daily. Cry when you need to cry and just go on. I cry several times a week because my son is not here to talk to. The grandchildren keep us going. I am so so sorry and pray that your family will find peace and know God has a reason for everything. Something good somewhere down lifes road will come from this and we will see it. Now we are too grief stricken to see or even think straight. It is a numb feeling and no one knows that feeling but us, the ones who are there. Find comfort in the words people write to you on this site. If you cilck on the left of created site memory-of.com, go to bottom of page and all are there. I try to write to some of the ones who have had a loss resent. I feel they need comfort the most. Time is working for ones who have lost in the past years. I wish I had time to write to all so I try to choose the ones God leads me to. God sends people your way for a reason, no matter how far away we are.
I know you feel as I do that she was too young to die. My son only 30 dying of a heart attack? It does not seem fair but it happen and his wife and 3 little children have to go thru life without a father that loved them more than anything, tried so hard to do right and provide for them. His children talk all the time about what a good daddy they had. That makes me smile and so proud of him. Most 30 year old men do little or nothing for their children but he diapered, bathed, put them to bed, took them to school, helped cooked, clean, loved to play with them, make funny faces at them, etc. He left them with good memories and that is what keeps me going because I know he was a daddy that anyone would love to have.
Keep your memories close to your heart and your photos. They will keep her alive with you daily. Her spirit now is with you everywhere you go. I write a few words of comfort to families who are going thru what I am because it makes feel better and also helps me heal. Do something good for others and that also will make you feel good about yourself. God bless your family and you will find peace if you lean on him.
Love, Sharleen Hess (United States, state of Tennessee) mommy to duane-mounger.memory-of.com
So Very Sorry for Your Loss / Melissa Eiler (Visitor~Daughter of Irwin & Renee Eiler )
SLEEP WELL / Cordelia Stronge (stranger in the uk )
To the family of Steph I extend my sincere condolences and may she rest in PERFECT AND ETERNAL PEACE.
A beautiful tribute / Bec T. (Stranger) Julie, Whilst i did not know Steph during her time on earth, after viewing her site i feel i know her like an old friend. A beautiful tribute. They say that people live forever if they do so in the minds of others, i can honestly say that your little girl will live forever in my mind and heart. She is a beatiful girl and i am sad that she did not find her place on earth but she will undoubtedly shine brightly from above.
I have read that you have had to overcome many challenges on your past website etc but you should be proud that you have battled on to produce this lovely site, as creative as Steph was i think if they have the net in heaven then she is surfing this page right now and is loving it! Best Wishes.
Big Smile / Kevin Lahiff
G'Day Jules,
A great memorial, there is no doubt that Steph had a brilliant smile. I feel very sad that you will not see it light up her face again. You do however, have some wonderful photos to rmember her by.
Best Wishes Kevin
happy birthday / Rach Robinson (best friend ) Happy Birthday Steph love & miss u always xoxoxoxoxox
Let Me Not Die Alone / Anonymous Let me not die alone, Watch me take a step, As I cross the threshold, leave the light and known fears, To face the dark unknown. help me tro brave the door, Watch me leave and say "Goodbye".
The greatest fear is knowing there maybe no one near to mark my going and be with me at the end.
Do I walk or run into that void? Should I tiptoe or take a leap? Make it quick or take it slow? The end is the same. But depending on what is through that door, My arrival may help me find some peace, Acceptance of the phase, That after night, comes the dawn.
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