I read the bio and felt your pain. I also miss my daughters smile, it is very hard. What we would do to have them back. I hope they have crossed paths and are sending their love from the heavens above. Hold those memories close, because NO ONE can ever take those away. God bless you!!!
a year already! / Jade Davey (primary school bestie ) Stephy, its been a year since you faded away from everybody in your life. i cant beleive it, till ths day i still cry whenever i think of you. you were my best friend no one will ever replace you in my life. you were my twin we used to do everything together. i cant beleive it has been a year since i had to do the hardest thing i have ever had to do in my whole life, say goodbye to you. i have never let you go i think about you every day, i have a photo of you and i from when we were little about 8 or 9 and it is still till this day in the same frame as it was then. i miss you so much. i still cant bleive you are gone it still hasnt sunk in. i love you so much girl. i always will. for juli and phil my number is 9758 7136 send me urs please i was meant to call but cant find number. she was truely an angel. goodbye stephanie xoxoxox
Tears run down like razor blades. / Charley D'Lasselle (Friend of a friend )
(i wrote this on the 15th but i couldnt get it online till now )
A year ago today, the world lost two angels, two beautiful, kind, loving girls. That day changed my life, and the lives of many others, whethjer directly or indirectly. Parents lost their daughters, (my deepest condolences to you) so many lost their friends. And we are still trying to understand, to accept it, to stop expecting them to walk in the door, send an IM or simly to smile their radiant smiles. Painful memories come back so suddenly; all that is needed is a smell, a spoken word, a song. People don't realiser that, in some ways, this is harder for us, than the death of a family member. Adults, teachers and parents, constantly do or say things that offend thier memory. teachers saying " you should get over it - they are gone" is such a hard thing to have to deal with. Its just not possible to forget these girls.
But I ask myself everyday : would they had done it if people had accepted them, loved them(and by that i mean strangers, bullies at school) I truly believe that they wouldn't have. So in a way they were forced over the edge,emotionally pushed.
But none of that matters anymore, all that matters is that we keep their memory alive, through positive words and thoughts and not allow their memory to be tainted by the evil rumors made by the media or ignorant people - or both. We are constantly toutured by the visions of them in the news, papers and online. They were simply THE most amazing girls, happy, smart, beautiful - people I aspired to be. I know Stephy is still very much with me in spirit , they still both are very much alive. I love her dearly and I miss her so terribly much.
Goodbye my beautiful angel, Rest in peace Stephy and Jodie, always in our hearts.
xx
It's offically been a year... / Krissa (Online Friend )
Dear Stephanie,
It's been a heart breaking year since you've been gone. A whole year already...wow. I miss you heaps. Words can't express how I miss you. I'm still in shocked, babygirl. My tears still run from my face. It hurts me really bad. I can't believe it, I try to ignore it but your face keeps popping up in my head. I can't ignore it, I know that. There's no way of escaping what happend last year. You taught me a powerful lesson and I love you for that. Many people are living their lives to the fullest because of you. I wished I could take your pain away before you step off that tree. I wished I could have cut that tree down. I wish you could still be here with your family and friends. Same with Jodie. You had a very unique style and ways of expressing yourself. You were yourself and no one can't replace you. If I could, I'll give my life for you. You were loved by your mother and stepfather, phil. Your nana loved you too. Yeah, I saw the pictures of you and your nana. You looked so happy with her. I'm deeply missing you heaps. You were so beautiful and talented. I miss your makeup ideas. You were one of a kind. I know I can't change the past but if I ever had a time machine, I'll fix what happend. I love you heaps. REST IN PEACE.
*Your love is like the wind, I can't see it but I can feel it*
you are forever loved / Maddie Lydiard (freind)
what a hard day.
a year ago today you walked out and never came back, know one will ever fully understand why. i can only pray that you have found the peace and confort in another place, the peace and confort that this world could not offer you.
steph, you are missed so incredibly much, for the time you were here you gave it all you had, you were an inspiration to a lot of us, you where who you were and no one could ever change that. you did not bow down to stereotypes, you did not change yourself just to "be cool" you were simply steph!
steph, no one will ever forget you. you shall live on for ever and ever. im just so sorry that you had to leave this earth to find a better way. it doesnt seem fair anymore, life doesnt seem fair. it is not right that you had to do what you did to find another place to call home.a place much better then this one.
its hard finding the words to say right now, i can only imagine the pain that your parents are living through today, it would be like grieving the loss all over again. i wish i could do more, i wish i could offer more but i cant and it hurts. Juli, stay strong, fight through this, if you cant fight for yourself fight for steph. live the life she would have wanted you to have. i know it will be hard even getting out of bed for you today, but you HAVE to keep going.
i wish i knew the right things to say that would make your pain leave but i have no words to do that. just know that plently of people care, plenty of people miss steph and feel the emptiness within aswell, you are not alone in this Juli. steph is not alone where she is now either. she is loved and always will be.
WE WILL NEVER FORGET
R.I.P dear angel
Prayers from across the world / Rich P. (none) I may not know you at all, but my heart and prayers go out to you, Stephanie. Look, you've got the world praying for you now! Rest in Peace.
--Rich, North America
Love Forever / Alana Westlin (none) I didn't know you Steph, but I had stumbled on your VF site once before this happened. You were such a beautiful kid. I've cried more than once since it happened. Cried for you and Jodie. I miss you guys like it were my best friends who are gone. Even though we never met or spoke, I feel closer to you guys then I have to anybody. Cause of you I am on anti-depressants and slowly getting back on track. You saved my life. I love you Steph. Thank you for existing.
A whole year next month... / Lily (Online Friend ) It's gonna be a year next month since you've been gone, steph. I miss seeing and talking to you on the computer. I can't believe it, a whole year is gonna pass by. My tears still drops for you, babygirl. Rest In Peace xoxoxoxoxo
Troubled Soul / Kerry (Passer By )
I remember the day you went missing. I was online and i read it for days as it was unfolding. May your troubled soul now rest in peace.
its been the hardest year ever to accept the passing of 2 beautiful angels whom were said to be really gone:( / Alesia Ralphs (friend and of jodie best m8 ) with theese feelings it is that i am outraged and too depressed to sociate and go out fearing i'll loose all my friends, ever since the girls suicide, everytime i hear the name of a girl called Steph or Jodie it brings tears to my eyes,my blood pumps fast, breathing becomes heavy and i get the shakes and my i have found it incredibly the most toughest challenge of my life to keep focoused at school trying to finish yr 12 where steph n jodie couldv'e been.
im really really empathetic not as a stranger but as a friend, we were all like a kindrid spirit of the girls, and everyday i think of them n pray for them to be having all they ever wanted rest, if you would like to contact me it would be nice my e-mail alesia_69@hotmail.com just to talk and get some private family and friend things of my chest and yours, also i've made a site for jodie but her father took it down and i have to pay money to keep it which i would do im just saving it up please please julie if you get in contact with Karren can you let her know that there's some teens who really would like to pay their respects and see her, as they ereunable to make it to the funeral in springvale sorry about bringing it all back up its just irreplaceable in the mind and screaming to escape but there were many good times i ahd with your daughter and jodie it's just a shame i didn't capture them and cherrish each day we spent together. R.I.P GIRLS THERE'S NOT A DAY IN MY LIFE I DON'T THINK ABOUT YOU BOTH AND WISH I COULD TUN BACK TIME AND SAVE YOU BOTH
Photos/ Lorraine Carnsew (Nanna) Dear Steph, This is the first Christmas without you here, my heart feels empty without you being here, but I know that you are being looked after in heaven, I love you so much but I will see you in heaven. We shared lots of good times together, my granddaughter and had lots of fun. You brought out the little girl in me. I have done about four or five scrap-book albums so I can always look at our good times we had together. I found a poem in a lovely book, the words are not my own but it is what I feel. "I searched through all the boxes to find photos to convey the love of us for Stephanie whom God has called away. I have photos in albums and in boxes large and small. I would not part with one of them for I treasure them one and all. Photos are a precious gift and joy they impart, but the most lasting memories are photos are taken by the heart." Letters to Heaven, Words of Comfort for the grieving soul. Thena Smith and Lynne Carey.
i will never forget you ,tho i never met you,you took a piece of my heart with you / Dave Decarlo (uncle) i am so mad at myself for never having made the move to talk or write in a more personal way to you,but things were not going so good for me in many ways and i thought as most people do and put it off.saying to myself she will be more mature and then we can have a better relastionship(do not put it off)i am so sad that the only person left in my bro's life is now gone.She was so beautiful,if i only ,,,,sorry i send all my love to you Julie,Phil and your Mom and Dad,,i am sure they must really be hurting.thank god you sent me the photo's i have of Steph.all my love.............dave
Who Am I Now? - Victoria Tushingham - Los Angeles TCF / Juli Gestier (Mother) In the stillness of the morning, the cool gray light of dawn. I open my eyes, then remember: My only child is gone. It's different now, this older grief; the pain is not the same. Most people have forgotten, I rarely hear her name. But as I lie here, waiting for the another day to begin' I hear the emptiness echo, and I wonder who I am. Am I still a mother with no child to hold? How can my heart ever feel love when I still feel so cold? Am I going somewhere, with no dreams to lead? Do I have a purpose, can I fill a need? I'll never be a grandma, no grandchild of my own. Who will be beside me when I grow weary and, oh, so old? I'll never see the pleasure of life unfolding for my daughter. Who am I to go on for, what is life now for? Is there some direction, might there still be more? Will I find an answer, a place to call my won? Where will love once more blossom, from seeds that I have sown? Life is so confusing, I don't know where to go. All I ever planned for, just isn't going to be so. I struggle with a bearing, a need to find my way. What I now pray for is to have goals again one day. But the suffering is not so deep as before. And the tears have almost dried, There is strength within me. You see, our love didn't die. The sky's now fully opened, another day has begun, and I will find the courage to rise and meet the sun. I do not know the answers, the questions will remain, but with her love to guide me, I WILL learn to live again.
R.I.P/ May Nevz (passer by ) may her memory live on in ur dreams
ill never forget you / Nessrin Milkai (wattleview bestie =] )
'thanks for all youve done ive missed you for so long i cant belive your gone you still live in me. in loving memory of the one that was soo true you were as kind as you could be and even tho your gone you still mean the world to me'
stephanie i wishh i stillhad contact with you after you moved. i feel so selfish and guilty that i didnt even make an effort. but ill always love you and always be thinking of you. you brightend my years of primary school and i loveyou for it. i loveyou for being my friend wen there was no one else. and the memories i will always cherish. the sleepovers and the fun will always be there. i loveyou forever bub.
Tributes and Condolences
with theese feelings it is that i am outraged and too depressed to sociate and go out fearing i'll loose all my friends, ever since the girls suicide, everytime i hear the name of a girl called Steph or Jodie it brings tears to my eyes,my blood pumps fast, breathing becomes heavy and i get the shakes and my i have found it incredibly the most toughest challenge of my life to keep focoused at school trying to finish yr 12 where steph n jodie couldv'e been
sorry about bringing it all back up its just irreplaceable in the mind and screaming to escape but there were many good times i ahd with your daughter and jodie it's just a shame i didn't capture them and cherrish each day we spent together. R.I.P GIRLS THERE'S NOT A DAY IN MY LIFE I DON'T THINK ABOUT YOU BOTH AND WISH I COULD TUN BACK TIME AND SAVE YOU BOTH 
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